Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Pain

Pain has been such an issue lately.  I hurt from head to toe.  I was or am weaning myself off of the amytriptilline, which I take for pain control, but I hurt so bad.  It's weird how this pain is so different than the pain you experience when you stub your toe or a paper cut on your finger.  My pain is aching, flu-like pain.  Also just my husbands touch on my arm sends off intense pain signals.  I don't know what to do.
I think I may increase my dose again, but I am nervous.  I think this medicine might be the cause of my "seizures" that I was diagnosed with last month.  I have to choose from the lesser of two evils I suppose.
Today I went outside and tended to my flowers. A few years ago my flower garden would have been so full of beautiful blooms.  This years garden looks very sparse, sad and pathetic, but I need to keep whatever I can going.   After the sunset, I pulled  a few weeds, and now I am completely wiped out.  My pain is everywhere now and so intense.
Maybe, one day I will have a beautiful garden again.

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