Today is the day before my 4 in a row work schedule and I am dreading it. Not because I don't want to work, but because I am hoping I can survive it. My plan is to rest most of today so that maybe my energy reserves will take me through the next 4 days. I am grateful to be working still. I really think the interactions I have at work are therapeutic for me otherwise I would be stuck in a house all day long.
It is difficult for me to get out of the house much on the days my husband works because I get so dizzy when I drive and sometimes when I am out and about my thoughts get all confused. This is especially true when I am in an area with a lot of people around and in very busy areas. Its almost like my brain can not decipher too much information at one time. It gets overloaded really quickly.
When I go to the grocery store, I have to plan on what to get. If I don't then it seems I wander around aimlessly trying to figure out and find what I am looking for. I end up walking back and forth across the store, which leads me to be completely and utterly exhausted (mentally and physically). By the time I get to the checkout, I must look like death warmed over. I try not to carry on a conversation with the cashier as I am sure nothing I say would make very much sense.
If you ever have a conversation with me and I am exhausted, I would like to apologize ahead of time. It is not that I don't find what you say interesting, it's that for some reason I can not process what you are saying. I can't tell you how many times people have told me something and I have no idea what they have just said. It is rather embarassing. I have always been told that I am a rather intelligent person, and I do consider myself to be for the most part, but lately my ability to absorb information is nill.
"He who asks a question is a fool for a minute; he who does not remains a fool forever."....Chinese Proverb
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