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I am definitely in a funk.  Depression is one of the symptoms of MS.  I am wondering why???  My depression stems from the inability to do what I want.  Not like a spoiled kid, but normal everyday things that I can't do, that I want to do. I am concerned that I may be at my new baseline, which means no more energy filled days. No more days spent outside hiking as I have a hard time concurring the curbs lately.  My bike is just going to be a dust collector, bummer nice bike too. Still doing the Pilates and the occasional elliptical, not for too long. 
  Spent the day at the doctors and I just don't know what to think.  You go there looking for answers and leave with more questions than anything.  My doctor did not really tell me anything today, seems like I was doing a lot of talking and next thing I know, it was see you in 3 months unless you need me sooner.  I am need you for what?  What did you do for me?  I could of just stayed at home and talked to myself in the mirror. HMPFFFFF!!!
My husband came home early from work to be with me and my sourpuss face.  He loves me so much, as I do him.  He wants my day to better and seeing him makes it better.  He helps me physically when I need help walking as well on the days I need emotional support.  I try not to overwhelm him, because I want to keep him around forever

~ Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less ~

Rabbi Julius Gordo