Doctors

Today I am going to see the neurologist, not my MS doctor.  It's a little stressful for me to go to all these different appointments.  I actually hate going to the doctors, as often as I have to go.  I hate being poked and prodded.  I hate being on display.  That's what it feels like.  With this neurology clinic, I never see the same doctor.  I usually see either a medical student or a resident, and then they bring in the attending doctor.  I have to tell my story all over again.  Why do I go to them then?  Because I can't afford my medications any other way.  Utilizing this clinic allows me to afford my Copaxone.  With just my health insurance, my copay is $250 a month, but through this clinic my copay is only $8.
I am struggling today.  I am sick of taking medications, so many for different things that all relate to MS.  A couple for other diagnosis. I can't stand taking medications, especially that shot.  I know that I can't control the course of this illness, but I take the medications so that hopefully it will slow down my progression.  I want to be able to participate in life, not sitting on my butt, but actively participating.