funk

So this post was supposed to be an uplifting blog about my life with MS.  I find myself in the midst of a funk and am having a very hard time lifting myself up let alone anyone else.
It's been a little over a week that my symptoms started to come back with a vengeance.  I am frustrated. I am angry.  I don't like this feeling I have right now.  I feel so alone in this.  My husband tries to understand but in many small comments (unintentional) I know he doesn't.  I have a feeling latelty that there is no hope.  No one to help me.  I feel isolated in my home sometimes.  I hate this disease and I am learning to hate who I am.  I hope this feeling will pass soon. 

I keep lifting up my problem to God, but maybe I don't know how to let go.  I have pain in my heart and pain in my body.  I am tired of watching life pass me by and not being able to participate.  Sometimes I think..........well it's not what I want to think.
I need some help.  I don't know who or what or where.  Pray.