I am unsure if anyone really reads my post or not, it really makes no difference either way. I find it great therapy to write my thoughts down once in a while. Although initially this post was to be inspirational, lately I have found it hard to stay that way.
I am angry today. I am mad at myself for letting this disease get the best of me lately. I am angry that I have this illness. I want to be who I was before. I don't know who I am now.
Since I have been diagnosed, it was my philosophy to not let this disease define who I am. Well, that has been hard to do lately. I try to do all the "right" things and I still end up taking 2 steps backwards.
I want to feel well and not sick ALL the time. I don't understand how some others have longer periods of well time and I don't even seem to get a week. I want a break. Please give me a break. A period of time when I feel well. I want to be able to do things and not have to pay for it a day or two later.
I need some inspiration. I need some hope. I need some healing physically and mentally. I don't like feeling this way. I am usually the one helping others, but right now I need some.
When we put our cares in His hands, He puts His peace in our hearts. ~Author Unknown
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