I think that sometimes I have a hard time wrapping my finger around this disease, because I am pretty much a straight forward person. MS is not straight forward is it? Some people experience one exacerbation and may not have another one for many years. Others do one big face plant down hill. It's rather curious if you think about. What is it about our genetic make-up that leads on person to be more resilient than another?
Is it lack of will? Maybe, but I have seen people fight tooth and nail, but still don't recover from whatever their burden is. Although as a nurse I have seen what lack of will can do to a variety of people. Sometimes it can mean the difference of surviving or not.
I like to think that my will is strong, my faith in the good Lord is strong too. Everyday brings new opportunities, new challenges, but I know deep down in my heart, that I will overcome, to what degree we shall see, but never the less, I will.
My philosophy has always been, when I have a bad day, "If this is the worst thing that happens to me today, then it will be a good day." I try to instill that into my kids also, for the little unimportant things life brings us. On my worst days, I get so blinded, that it's hard to find my way out, but eventually life is still there and I need to embrace it.
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