I am so tired, exhausted really. Last night I woke up at 1:30, couldn't fall back asleep until 5:45. I took a 2 hour nap today, yet I still feel so tired. Made Christmas cookies today with help from my mother-in-law, yet feel like I did another of those darn marathons. Every ache in my body has an ache. My legs feel wobbly. My right eye is not so good right now. I have a massive headache, but whose complaining.
I can hardly believe that Christmas is a couple of days away. This year has passed by so fast. I remember when I was younger, a year felt like it lasted forever. Now I look at my kids, wonder where all the years went. They are so big, teenagers, what happened to my babies? I wish I could slow down time a little. I am afraid if time goes to fast that I will become more disabled, less able to enjoy life. It is already hard enough as it is.
I find this blog to be very therapeutic. I can let go of some of my emotions through it. I try to be positive, but every once in a while I just feel drained. It is hard to be so upbeat when you're body feels so beat up. I am waiting for my break. A nice long one without any relapses. The one that supposed to come with RRMS. I am ready for my remission, a very long remission I hope. That's what I want for Christmas. I want a very very long period of remission, with the ability to work normal hours and enjoy my kids, husband, my life.
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